I’m FED UP with people who can’t take a hint.
I’m FED UP with people who are so full of shit.
I’m FED UP with liars and their stupid games.
I’m FED UP with YOU. I wish I never knew your name.

I’m fed up with feeling lonely and depressed.
I’m fed up with only going for second best.
I’m fed up with living a mediocre life.
I’m fed up with cutting with a blunted knife.

I’m fed up with the weather, I’m sick of the cold.
I’m fed up with feeling cranky and sorry and old.
I’m fed up with not going anywhere today.
I’m fed up with just wishing for a better day.

I think I’ve let myself slip into a lazy lifestyle for too long. I’ve been letting other people get in my way and at the same time holding myself back from doing what I know I should and taking care of my needs. The anxiety of what it means to start a new job is whats been keeping me from even try to look for a job even though it’s already been 2 1/2 months since I got fired. My major complex in life is this feeling of not fitting in and not belonging anywhere and that has really been bringing me down lately. Especially because my ex popped back into my life again and I thought we were going to get back together but instead I find myself sucked back into him and his kid’s mom’s stupid games.

I’ve taken an overextended break from the responsibilities of life and it’s time to get back in the game. As I said I’m sick of living a mediocre life and only going for second best. I deserve so much better than the drama I’ve been dealing with lately. This year I am throwing caution to the wind and just going to GO FOR IT. Whatever “it” is. I have nothing, absolutely nothing holding me back. I want a better life. I want to move into a better apartment in a better neighborhood, I want to get a good job in the hospital and also a fun job that pushes me out of my comfort zone, I want to go school dammit and I will! I refuse to put if off another year just because of financial issues. And I want a stinkin car too!

And don’t think I’m just going to let those people who screwed me over get away with it AGAIN. I’m plotting my revenge and it is gonna be SWEET. THE BITCH IS BACK!

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